fundraisers and such

several fundraisers occured this weekend in the texas area and an incredible $7,000.00 was raised. there is also an awesome event being planned for the santa rosa ca area on sept 6. for details on that please sign up for updates here, or call an information line at 707.237.5701.

we have also been blessed by another dear friend with the creation of an online travel site that will also generate some income for us. you can either simply book your flights and hotel accomodations there, or you can actually set up your own travel site as a part of my business and you and i both will receive commissions from business generated on your site! to book travel arrangements visit here or for more info on the business visit here.

i cannot express the magnitude of gratitude (copyright jesse jackson at some point i am sure) this lehr family has for all the incredible efforts going on to support us. there are some huge efforts requiring many hours of work and devotion, may God bless you tenfold for the gifts you have bestowed.

holy crap

so much to update, so few brain cells devoted to remembering them all!

the conclusion of our california /tijuana trip was not quite as hopeful as we would have liked. my current diagnosis is extreme enough that even the alternative hospitals are talking about extended life expectancy rather than complete remission. they have experienced complete remission but it is the exception rather than the rule.

we returned to austin on thursday the 9th, and on friday the 10th, went through the needle biopsy which i highly recommend avoiding if at all possible. i left for georgia on saturday to spend a week at a conference regarding the spiritual and physical dynamics of healing and being whole. it was really good eye opening material, and i again have a great hope that i will be completely healed. the "for my life" conference at Be In Health ministries has recorded numerous miracle healings of many untreatable diseases including terminal cancer.

Right after the lest session of the conferenc i started experiencing some chest pain and shortness of breath. after the most exasperating time of dealing with emergency rooms in ga it was finally determined that i had a partially collapsed lung, along with a small amount of fluid and swelling of the lining of my lung and chest wall. things could have been worse, but it seems that some of the physically painful implications of the cancer may be starting to manifest.

it also appears that the original diagnosis i received was incomplete. believe it or not, there are more tumors than i thought my oncologist discussed. there are 5 or 6 in my lungs with at least one tumor in each of the lobes of the lungs, and 4 or 5 tumors in my liver, as well as the one on my spine. we are standing strong against fear and doubt, but it is a very hard position to maintain at times. we are going to head back up to shasta in a week or so to stay until the funds for tijuana are available.

i think that is all for now, thank you for tracking with the lehr family. i desperately seek your continued prayer and financial support, and look forward with great hope to having a good report of God's power soon.

on the road

johnna and i spent this last weekend in a church in northern CA that has experienced untreatable terminal cancer patients being healed. it has been an extraordinary time of building hope, and we feel equipped to keep pressing on in our journey. i will have an MRI and a needle biopsy this coming friday, and i wouldn't be shocked to hear the report that the tumors are mysteriously gone! we were supposed to be heading to tijuana today, but our flight was overbooked so we are going tomorrow. there are 2 alternative hospitals there that we will be visiting before we make our final decision regarding which to seek care from, and following our trip we should have an updated cost analysis. We hope to have the funding for the treatment as soon as possible, so be aware of the fundraisers happening in your area. there is a cut-a-thon in austin on august 19 and something fun and exciting with a celebrity chef in santa rosa on september 6th.

as things just keep looking worse and worse, i am glad to have already experienced the generosity and support from so many of you. i thank you for standing with me, and know before i ask that you will continue to stand and even stand stronger for me and my family as we face this growing tyrant.

bad news

... ... well ... i am in bad shape. after a brief conversation on monday with my oncologist, i was able to sit down with him this morning and get the details. the spot in my lung from march has grown quickly, there are several other spots in the same lobe of the same lung, there are 2 spots on my liver and possibly a spot on my spine. The spine mass may be an injury that i incurred as part of the awkward stance i adopted to promote faster skin healing during my radiation treatments. the dr. was very specific today that the only option left is chemotherapy. surgeries are no longer an option when the disease is this advanced, and my lungs would not be able to withstand the radiation necessary to eliminate the tumor. The dr. stated to me and my wife today that this is going to kill me, that i am going to die from this. there may be some experimental options that may prolong my survival, but there are no treatments that will save me.

i obviously will continue to stand in the belief that i have a long life ahead of me, that i will enjoy my childrens weddings and hold my grandchildren. my hope is in Christ alone. we are also going to be wise and pursue every single stinking snake oil and miracle healer we can find, and i will create extraordinary memories for my wife and children.

i do not accept the death sentence today

lung butter

well... ...

talked to my oncologist today, remember the little tiny spot in my lung that was too small to do anything with? It has grown (a lot) and has several new neighbors along with it. the spot was 2 mm in march and is now 2 cm, and there are several other new spots as well.

my current coverage through a county aid program expires on august 10th and will not be renewable, so my oncologist is scrambling to get me in for a needle biopsy. this sounds like a normal fun thing to try, i will have a needle inserted all the way into my lung where the tumor is and they will remove a small portion of the tumor for a biopsy. then we will know for sure what it is .... ... could it be anything other than more of the same cancer that has shown up 6 times elsewhere in my body? i honestly don't know, but i can't imagine anything else at this point.

i just wonder at this point ... what would sponge bob do?

now what!?

Radiation is finished! my skin is starting to heal up and i can sleep without cramming my arm into an awkward overhead position. i love how things are so relative, and i get to enjoy sleeping on the rv table/bed so much now. i had a ct scan on monday and my oncologist will hopefully be able to get the results to me tomorrow, so we're pretty anxious about that. not much else to report at this point, we still have no idea what is next for us.

there are several great fundraising efforts going on right now. the paul mitchell school is doing a cut-a-thon on august 19th, the black angels are going to do a benefit show in september and the rv park is putting together a BBQ/game night for residents of the park. i love all the attention!

more coverage headaches

rawr! the eternal battle dealing with bureaucracy just keeps on going! My oncologist tried to schedule a ct scan last week, but was informed that he is no longer authorized to refer me for treatments and scans. i used up over half of my cell plans minutes trying to figure out what i had to do in order to get the scan done. i was told that i had to have a dr appointment at one of the dirty ghetto clinics in order to establish coverage. the next available appointment is september 12. the coverage that i have been provided expires on august 10, and will not be renewed unless my homes are sold. after waiting on hold and sitting in several offices for hours, i snapped and decided i was gong to just go make a scene at the state capitol building. i figured "what the heck, worse case scenario, i'll get myself arrested and they probably can't deny health services to inmates." i have never been to the capitol building, so i just showed up in the lobby and started asking random people what they would do. i was eventually sent to my state senators office where i found an individual whose position is constituent services. this delightful woman spent an hour and a half making calls and turning the screws until she got in touch with the right guy at the right time. we were promised a return call that same day, so i left and awaited his call. by the time he called i already had an appointment for the next day at the dirty clinic in the bad part of town. i went to the clinic and was helped by a handful of very helpful concerned individuals, however, they apparently do not have the same access to the hospital scheduling and it may take several weeks before i can get the scan done, and that is assuming that the family dr i saw agrees with my oncologist that the scans are necessary. it sure seems ridiculous to have a family clinic dr oversee the recommendations of a oncology specialist with 15 years experience treating cancer, especially since my oncologist was able to get my last ct scan scheduled in 2 days. i guess it won't serve any purpose to try to find reasonable rational thought in the bureaucracy.

i think i am close to really being at the end of my rope, and i mean that in a good "tyler durden" kind of way (reference fight club). we are actively laying down all of our previous hopes dreams desires wants assumptions and expectations, and looking at life with some pretty brutally honest admissions. it's been really great to strip down to the bare essentials and allow new matured (hopefully) mindsights to govern our desires.

again, i cannot thank all of the genereous friends who have donated time, money, love and creativity to my family. there are several new fundraising efforts underway, my beauty school is doing a cut-a-thon in august and my friends band the black angels are planning a benefit show in september. if anyone knows of a local (tx) band that would want to play at the cut-a-thon, let me know.

love you all!