... ... well ... i am in bad shape. after a brief conversation on monday with my oncologist, i was able to sit down with him this morning and get the details. the spot in my lung from march has grown quickly, there are several other spots in the same lobe of the same lung, there are 2 spots on my liver and possibly a spot on my spine. The spine mass may be an injury that i incurred as part of the awkward stance i adopted to promote faster skin healing during my radiation treatments. the dr. was very specific today that the only option left is chemotherapy. surgeries are no longer an option when the disease is this advanced, and my lungs would not be able to withstand the radiation necessary to eliminate the tumor. The dr. stated to me and my wife today that this is going to kill me, that i am going to die from this. there may be some experimental options that may prolong my survival, but there are no treatments that will save me.
i obviously will continue to stand in the belief that i have a long life ahead of me, that i will enjoy my childrens weddings and hold my grandchildren. my hope is in Christ alone. we are also going to be wise and pursue every single stinking snake oil and miracle healer we can find, and i will create extraordinary memories for my wife and children.
i do not accept the death sentence today
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Isaac, Jonna and children: We grieve with you on this news. We trust Christ and we don't understand. Our hearts are heavy. I can't even being to imagine how you are feeling right now. Thank you for sharing your journey with us through this. We are available for you in whatever way we can best serve you, but most especially we are praying for a miracle. Thank for your faith.
Cancer fucking sucks!I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this.It makes me want to scream!I feel so frustrated w/this health/ wealth care system.You should have been taken care of properly from the beginning of your diagnosis...you have a great attitude and lots of love to give.I'm pulling for you.
Even though we can't be with you in Texas, please know that we are with you and your family in spirit. We have been praying for you and will continue to do so. We love you all very much and wait for a miracle. The attitude that you have been walking through this with is an inspiration to us.
Herb and Johna
Hey Isaac-
I am in awe....not just of the news but of your courage and undeniable faith. I feel so far away at this point and am hating not being able to do anything that you would need us to do for you. If there is anything that we can do, please let me know. There are sooo many people praying for you......love you! ang.
what do you need most - do you need money do you need food do you need screaming prayers on your behalf, do you need contacts for snake oils and other alternative routes, do you need people who are not in your inner circle to back off or dive in?? your time is irreplaceable, your resources are precious.
I have met you both once, Issac was my whatever for the Discovery Seminar last year (contact person?) but we will do whatever you want need say.
I hate this. H-H-Hate it. But I am taking your example and remain fighting. We are doing the only thing we know is right to do - pray and fast, and plan big events. Isaac and Johnna, if people want to help and you don't have specific requests for them, we have ideas and we could use any help to "go big". We have a new number just for our event...707-237-5701. Updates will be recorded and you can leave messages. And we are designing a very expensive "Isaac-tini", so our secret ingredient suggestion box is open... Maybe a 6-Lehr parfait? Official date...September 6th.
What memories are you wanting to create with your family? How can we participate/facilitate? Want to do some wakeboarding, skiing at the lake? Let's make a date...you say when!
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