35 years old today, i figure that must be the halfway point for my lifespan, minimum. i have always teased that my kids owe me some dirty diaper changing and i fully plan on collecting that service from them when i am old.
spent the sunrise on bennett valley ridge this morning, watched the brightness of the stars become completely eclipsed by the power of the sun and it made me realize how much my faith and hope have grown in the last couple months. from the initial anxiety of 1 small tumor, to the depth of fear and darkness of the death sentence from 08/1/2007, johnna and i have been brought into a place of joy and intimacy that i have craved ALL MY LIFE! not to mention my relationship with God taking a consuming passionate reckless obsession. another hardly noticed byproduct has been the complete release of several giant issues of bitterness and regret and unforgiveness.
i have come to believe that God is never the source of disease, yet sometimes i am tempted to worship him for the cancer! i do not, i do curse this wickedness, and revile it, yet the pain and the struggle and loss of this season has produced so much to celebrate, i am left with nothing but gratitude. There are good days and bad days, including a terrifying hallucinegic mix of pain killers, but this adventure is a life worth living.
a few more details to update as well, i have completed 4 of 15 daily radiation treatments here in santa rosa ca. the last treatment is scheduled for october 3rd and then hopefully we can complete our road trip to Mt Shasta CA. We are also receiving much more comprehensive medical coverage afforded by the CA medi-cal program and it looks like there may be more resources and possibilities for conventional treatments available.
thanks again to all for the love and labor and generosity,
isaac
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Hi Issac
I was just re-reading information on a yahoo group I am on.. FOTR and wanted to find out if you still need help with grant writing. I have experience doing this at my previous job of 17 years... I may be able to help..
I am currently not employed so I would like to assist you during this time.
Wishing you a wonderful birthday!
Keep the faith!!
Hi Isaac,
Happy 35 to you! You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers. I'm thrilled to hear that you've started radiation and pray that it is going well for you.
Happy Birthday Isaac!
Happy Birthday Isaac! Glad to hear you're feeling "up" and drunk with spirit!Sounds like Cali has been good to you and your family.My birthday is Friday...I didn't realize we shared the same month.Take care and hugs to Johnna!
Happy Birthday Issac!
You look and sound great. In case you did not know, Todd Bentley is scheduled for Oct.3-6 at The Lighthouse, 88 Middle Rincon Rd. S.R. and you can register yourselves online at no cost at Fresh Fire Ministries. Registration required to attend. Hope to see you there.
Rich and Marianne Gibson and family
35... I can't believe it sometimes...when dad was 35, I was 16, and I couldn't imagine being in his shoes one day, but I am, and I enjoy every minute of it. Do I wish I was 16 again, NOPE! I'm glad for the years I am and the place I'm at. I'm glad that I have friends I've grown up with who have made it to be 35+. I'm grateful that I have friends like you, Noel, Taiwo...Happy belated Birthday brother. Stick around for the next 50 years and let's see who ends up with the most wrinkles on their b---. Love you brother.
Big D <><
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LATE Isaac! Gosh, you and Joshua are 2 weeks apart, he turned 35 sept 3rd:) Sooo like brothers at such a young age...maybe too much like brothers:) Wow...add Dino and Noel, and I have some pics to send you..of all of you! I was out of town and am heading to Joshuas house in Louisiana this Wed to spend a few weeks alone with he and his wife and 3 boys. Can you please send me the place to send you a copy of the pics I have of you boys, oh about 2 yrs, on up:) Love you Isaac and praying for you and yours, Jenny Wisnoski jwwildski@aol.com
Hi Isaac,
Happy belated 35th! I know so many of us who grew up together are turning that ripe age that shifts us into that next polling/survey category. (25-34, 35-?). I have been following your blog and progress and have been lifting up prayers on your behalf. I am amazed at your family and your faithful response to all the current hardship you are facing. What an example of triumph in the midst of suffering. I am so glad that you are getting radiation treatments in SR and hope you get better care in general. My hope (along with the obvious multitude who champion your cause and love you) is that you will be around for a long time coming. I am guessing by the "fight" that is left in you, that will be the case.
So many of us are fighting alongside you....in prayer.
Much Love,
Christina, Darren and Nathaniel Holland (formerly Christina Hash)
Happy Birthday Bud,
Im glad to hear your being taken care of in S.R. Was out by your place in TX an wished you were there.. Either way, I will be leaving soon for Iraq, but would like to see you an the family around Christmas?. Take care my old friend an please know that you are in my heart an prayers.
Love to ya, Josh
Hi Lehr family,
We miss you guys!!!!!!We are praying for you guys. We saw that the house SOLD!!! Praise God. Tell us if we can help.
Happy Birthday.
Dana and Mickey
kids
OXOXOXOXOXO
Isaac,
I feel a little like a lurker sneaking in and getting updates on how your doing. I am greatly encouraged by how you're handling this. You have the power, especially in your weakness, to lift others up and that you are doing. I have been praying for you. I am encouraged by you. Thanks.
I'm sure you are getting tons of suggestions. Feel free to disregard this but friends of mine have been going through cancer for the last three years. They keep a blog and every time I went to read it I came away blessed rather than depressed. I've included the link if you want to read what they said. This might be really good for your wife to read also.
http://www.alexandriatutorials.com/myexcellentwife.htm
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